Today

Today is the day.
Actually, it is my birthday. I am giving myself a gift.
I am a non-smoker.
So, how many hours so far? Well, it's 10:40 a.m. and my last killerette was at 9:32 p.m. on the 22nd of September, 2009. Not to be specific or anything.
I figured overnighting without a killerette (did I just make that up? a real term for cigarette? I should trademark that. BRB.)
Okay, now it's trademarked. (easy online process)
As I was saying, I figured overnighting without a killerette (tm) would be the best way to start.
And let me recommend a book. The book seems to work as subtle brainwashing. By Allen Carr, it's titled The EasyWay to Stop Smoking. You want to quit, you buy the book. You start reading it. Carr says, keep smoking the whole time you read this book, so you take about 3 months to read it. (One who usually reads a book every two days....yeah you figured it out.) Meanwhile, everything you've been reading is simmering in your brain. By the time you finish you are chomping at the bit

(ooh horse similes-that's just horsing around, isn't it!)
to give it up and start your journey to freedom.
So, enough plugging of the book, and I don't even get royalties. Unless you'd like to share Mr. Carr?

I stopped smoking once for seven years. Seriously. Then I started again? Smokers and non-smokers alike are shaking their heads in disgust. How dumb was that to start again? All addicts know it didn't take long to be right back there: using my drug of choice.

So I just had a serious pang of how fun it would be to do a blog and have a smoke. Aargh.

The first few hours (awake hours anyway) went by smoothly. My thoughts went like this:
Wow, this is easy. I am not suffering. I can do it. Ha, I don't even need a killerette (tm).

After about 12 easy hours (8 of which were sleeping...lol-) I am getting a few urges. Those painful ones. Like oh just forget it, I'll pick another day to quit. Ohh, I want some hits of my favorite drug: nicotine.

My daughter quit two and a half weeks before I did, so she has been my motivator, but now she just told me on the phone that she cheated twice. My reaction is that oh good, now I can cheat too. Then I thought oh WTF, if she cheated already, I might as well go get some killerettes tm and quit quitting.
But relax, (honey), I won't. Yet. Sorry, the yet is just being honest.

Let's be perfectly clear about the evils of smoking. If you smoke, you are an addict. Addicted to the drug that is in cigarettes. Nicotine.

Well, that's nearly enough for now. Although I started this blog to journal the journey, I may delve into other subjects. Like talk about all the things I want to start doing now that I am a non-smoker.
They are
1. write- finish and submit my works in progress
2. ride my horses more
3. walk (for exercise), hike, bike
4. practice and play my guitar

That's only the funstuff.
I also want to declutter and organize, eat healthy, lose weight, etc.etc.
My standing joke is about my New Year's Resolutions.
I make the same ones year after year. (Does everyone?)
Eat healthy ( =lose weight)
Exercise
Write
Declutter (=get rid of lots of crap) and organize house
Quit smoking
Be on time (the genetic code in my family has perpetual tardiness written in...)

That's enough blog for now. I think I'll go take a walk. With my big white Shepherd.
Later,
Diana