Sunday, October 4, 2009

brother

the intense cravings come occasionally with known triggers--break time, break time break time.
kind of funny how work breaks, home breaks, etc. trig it

but so far, no slips no relapses

how are you doing sarah?
are you still a quitter

i was really motivated to stay a quitter when my brother and his wife stopped by last night. he's moving to NC, for a new job and opportunity. it's exciting for them, sad for me but the point of this dissertation is:
he just had another cancer surgery on his mouth, mmm, the 6th? maybe the 5th. oral cancer. his recent surgery was a little over a week ago.
think nicotine is addictive? he stood there on the porch and smoked his ciggie.
holy shit
i think i'll stay quit

love,
me

ps i gave him my brainwash book mentioned in earlier posts
i love him and worry
why won't he stop
i will pray for him

1 comment:

  1. So they are definitely moving then huh? And wow, You think having oral surgery that many times (let alone once..) would be a HUMONGOUS motivator. But if he isn't using it for one, I'm glad you are. I'm so proud of you, and love you and couldn't be happier :-)))))

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